I wish

I can't just go ahead and leave her! Believe me, I want to be a part of my sons life and if I leave her she'll make sure that I never see my son again! I need to make this work, no matter what the cost. Sure, if I didn't have a kid with her their would be no problem, but if your baby was the cutest in the world I'm sure you would stick around as well. He actually isn't even my son, but I couldn't let the other guy be a father to this child. If the true paternity results were revealed then a drug-addict would have been the father and I couldn't let this girl go down that path. Maybe I just need to propose to her, but I'm trying to save money before I do anything that extreme. It's not that I'm scared to be committed to her, it's just that I don't have that much to offer the two of them as far as family goes right now, and I wanna make sure the timing is right. Why do babies have to make everything so complicated. If she and I didn't have our son I'm sure she wouldn't trip this hard off a stupid website. I don't understand why she trips so hard anyway. She clearly states that we are not technically together and the most affection I get is a little smack on the lips every now and then. Besides the night we "made our son", it hasn't even gone down since! I'm a little antsy so maybe she does have good reason to suspect me of cheating, but you gotta understand I would never hurt her like that.